7:24 AM in my bedroom, surrounded by my mess
How do you handle conflict with Beauty and Swagg?
Well I thought it meant holding your tongue so you didn't say things you'd regret later, things that would hurt people.
Turns out, one with beauty and swagg should never text and fight with someone either.
Ugh.
I'm so tired of being in arguments with people. And this one doesn't seem fair because I know MR and TW think of themselves as insiders and me as the outsider. And this one was started because of that guy who stole my phone, so I'm defending myself, to MR, for something TW thinks (that I have no idea what it is), and something I probably didn't do.
but she "has Mas's best interest at heart." Like I don't? Like all I want to do it crush the love of my life. I'm trying to be understanding, but it's hard when I'm feeling like it's 2 against 1, and like I have to voice with either of them.
Other negative pulls:
AB
AP
AR
(not doing so well with the A's)
9:50 PM
On my couch
I sent MR an apology text. Explaining that I'd felt attacked, but I should have given her benefit of the doubt and I hoped she had a good day; she didnt deserve to feel upset.
I handled DB, BE, & TS, and took what was dealt to me.
But Here's what I need to work on..
1. Confidence. I deserve things. I need to stop always defending/explaining who I am and how I live.
2. To stop taking everything so personal
3. & piggybacking off that last one: to stop hurting people with my words. Its crazy to me that people care so much about what I say
Here's what I want..
1. Girlfriends. I need to work on my relationships with all my wonderful girlfriends.
2. To keep up my manicures, pedicures, waxes, and dye jobs
3. Cleanliness.. in my car, in my room, in my life.
Here's what I've done...
1. Amazing sparkly pink gel mani pedi
2. Hair Dyed DARK
3. Eyebrows waxed
4. Amy and I are going to the Pretty Kitty for a brazillian haha
5. This sunday Monica Fay is coming to organize my room
I love who I am. I'm funny as heck. I love and care for people. & Im crazy smart and ambitious. Not to mention, gorgeous. Thats right I said it, I am gorgeous. I have great bone structure, huge gray blue eyes, and a pretty mouth and nose. I have curves to kill, and I look great in clothes. & BONUS.. I love fashion & money so I also have great clothes.
All in all, I see no reason to EVER feel insignificant. I am as good as I get.
Getting my Manicure/pedicure
Disgusting oatmeal. But look at my cute desk :)
This dress didnt hug right,
but this is why I'm eating salads and saying no to sweets.
I want to wear dresses that show off my legs!
Sweet Dreams World<3
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