Are y'all ready for this ?!
Currently successfully vegan. And the water weight is dropping and I feel really good.
Enough gossiping, judging, cattiness
There's no joy from that lifestyle
I love myself. I live my life.
I live for me.
Chopping off my hair. Guna buy a curling iron. And a blow dryer. Thank gosh for that amazon gift card.
Need new little black UBS
Running
Taking care of myself
Clean and organized
Saving money for winter/ shop in sprees :)
And fixing masons car
Love love love mason
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Monday, August 27, 2012
Prayer
Dear universe,
To know that I can ask for help and you answer is incredible. I have you on my side. I am loved. Thank you. Your help on Friday meant the world.
So I don't know if its greedy to keep praying. I feel whole now that things with TW have settled. But there are things I wish to discuss with you , dear universe. And praying made my heart feel fill. So please know how appreciative I am.
Tonight, daddy and B and T and I talked about confidence. About the beautiful Rooney Maras characters in the girl with the dragon tattoo. How she was so beautiful, despite being odd, for her confidence.
I believe that this is why I love my nipples pierced and my tattoo and my dark hair. They all feel like things you do if you're confident.
Dear universe, I'm falling asleep, but I want to ask you for help. I love myself, but I'm always second guessing myself. Help me realize how wonderful I am. And help me act with beautiful confidence.
I love you, dear universe.
To know that I can ask for help and you answer is incredible. I have you on my side. I am loved. Thank you. Your help on Friday meant the world.
So I don't know if its greedy to keep praying. I feel whole now that things with TW have settled. But there are things I wish to discuss with you , dear universe. And praying made my heart feel fill. So please know how appreciative I am.
Tonight, daddy and B and T and I talked about confidence. About the beautiful Rooney Maras characters in the girl with the dragon tattoo. How she was so beautiful, despite being odd, for her confidence.
I believe that this is why I love my nipples pierced and my tattoo and my dark hair. They all feel like things you do if you're confident.
Dear universe, I'm falling asleep, but I want to ask you for help. I love myself, but I'm always second guessing myself. Help me realize how wonderful I am. And help me act with beautiful confidence.
I love you, dear universe.
Friday, August 24, 2012
Happiness
Dear universe
why is Happiness so finicky sometimes. I love my life, but you keep throwing me these curve balls. What am I supposed to get out of this period of my life? And when will I know?
To be 100% honest with you, no tilted words to make me feel better: I feel sad. I miss having TW in my life. Shea so different from me, and her morals don't line up with mine per say, but I still think she's wonderful and there's so much I can learn from her. I wish you would help me find a way to get her back into my life.
I take or leave MR. She's not someone I particularly think is a good influence in my heart and soul. But I don't like the turmoil either. Please, universe, help my settle this.
And thank you, vast universe, for giving me mason. He is the most incredible man I've ever met. But please help calm my heart. I'm tired of arguing with him. I'm need to cut him more slack. I need to appreciate him more. In afraid ill loose him.
But thank you, wonderful universe, for my incredible life. I hope that I can take care of all that you've blessed me with. I dont want to waste any of it.
And I'm afraid my lack of confidence throws away some of the beauty and grace youve given me. Please help me find the strength inside of me to carry myself with strength, grace, and dignity.
I believe rumi when he says the entire universe is inside me. So please transcend me and help me along my way. I'm young and still learning and in love with the universe and it's way of guiding me.
My heart already feels more full.
Love you dear universe.
why is Happiness so finicky sometimes. I love my life, but you keep throwing me these curve balls. What am I supposed to get out of this period of my life? And when will I know?
To be 100% honest with you, no tilted words to make me feel better: I feel sad. I miss having TW in my life. Shea so different from me, and her morals don't line up with mine per say, but I still think she's wonderful and there's so much I can learn from her. I wish you would help me find a way to get her back into my life.
I take or leave MR. She's not someone I particularly think is a good influence in my heart and soul. But I don't like the turmoil either. Please, universe, help my settle this.
And thank you, vast universe, for giving me mason. He is the most incredible man I've ever met. But please help calm my heart. I'm tired of arguing with him. I'm need to cut him more slack. I need to appreciate him more. In afraid ill loose him.
But thank you, wonderful universe, for my incredible life. I hope that I can take care of all that you've blessed me with. I dont want to waste any of it.
And I'm afraid my lack of confidence throws away some of the beauty and grace youve given me. Please help me find the strength inside of me to carry myself with strength, grace, and dignity.
I believe rumi when he says the entire universe is inside me. So please transcend me and help me along my way. I'm young and still learning and in love with the universe and it's way of guiding me.
My heart already feels more full.
Love you dear universe.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
On my mind
1. New hair.. Roots done, cut off, itchy scalp
2. New perfect eyeliner and make up
3. New face wash, clear skin
4. New eating, clean body, hardcore pescatarian, no animal byproducts
5. Gosh darn period where are you???, new birth control that's less harmful
6. Run , Pilates, tone, sexy
2. New perfect eyeliner and make up
3. New face wash, clear skin
4. New eating, clean body, hardcore pescatarian, no animal byproducts
5. Gosh darn period where are you???, new birth control that's less harmful
6. Run , Pilates, tone, sexy
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Contentment
I am going to cut out animal by products, refined sugar, and gluten.
I will run and do YouTube Pilates daily.
I will look amazing come Halloween, chistmas, in a bikini, in langerie, on the slopes of park city, in my suits at work, and everything in between & beyond.
I will maintain my manicures an pedicures. My waxing - legs, eyebrows, and beyond. I will maintain my haircuts and dye jobs.
I will maintain cleanliness in my person and things.
I will take the time to maintain my relationship with myself as well as with my friends and family.
When my boss scolds me, I will learn from it.
I will not gossip. I will not judge.
Those who judge me, mean nothing. Those who love me, mean everything.
TW and MR mean absolutely nothing to me. They're deleted out of my phone and on fb. They contribute nothing to my life at this point.
My family and friends and myself mean the world.
I will run and do YouTube Pilates daily.
I will look amazing come Halloween, chistmas, in a bikini, in langerie, on the slopes of park city, in my suits at work, and everything in between & beyond.
I will maintain my manicures an pedicures. My waxing - legs, eyebrows, and beyond. I will maintain my haircuts and dye jobs.
I will maintain cleanliness in my person and things.
I will take the time to maintain my relationship with myself as well as with my friends and family.
When my boss scolds me, I will learn from it.
I will not gossip. I will not judge.
Those who judge me, mean nothing. Those who love me, mean everything.
TW and MR mean absolutely nothing to me. They're deleted out of my phone and on fb. They contribute nothing to my life at this point.
My family and friends and myself mean the world.
Friday, August 10, 2012
Love my life
8:49 am in my car
Aug 10
I am Jordan. I am gorgeous inside and out. I have a kind and loving soul. I try to embrace all of life. I love people who are different from me.
But I am strong. There are so many incredible things about me, that if you dislike me, that's your deal.
So I will explain myself to terra and see what comes of it.
But ultimately, if I don't have her as a buddy, if Michelle and heather are girls I hang out with, cest la vie. It's not like we go shopping now. I see them only when I'm with Mas. And I don't need Michelle to do my hair by any means.
So here's my game plan: love my life as is. Keep my big mouth shut more often. Increase my level of patience .
Meanwhile, of there are three girls who don't like me, why do I care? What do any of them, except terra, mean to y life. Nothing. And I can start looking for a new hairdresser.
And really, I love my friends -- Amy, noelle, Britney, Yurina, Jesee and vinia. All wonderful girls who come to me for love fun and advice. The girls who don't like me didnt even go to college. As mom says, people who don't go to school lack that level of tolerance and acceptance that you learn from being in a big mixing pot. Them not liking me doesn't take away any achievements. I can still have a ball even when they're around. I'm not petty, I'm just awkward.
Love love love
Aug 10
I am Jordan. I am gorgeous inside and out. I have a kind and loving soul. I try to embrace all of life. I love people who are different from me.
But I am strong. There are so many incredible things about me, that if you dislike me, that's your deal.
So I will explain myself to terra and see what comes of it.
But ultimately, if I don't have her as a buddy, if Michelle and heather are girls I hang out with, cest la vie. It's not like we go shopping now. I see them only when I'm with Mas. And I don't need Michelle to do my hair by any means.
So here's my game plan: love my life as is. Keep my big mouth shut more often. Increase my level of patience .
Meanwhile, of there are three girls who don't like me, why do I care? What do any of them, except terra, mean to y life. Nothing. And I can start looking for a new hairdresser.
And really, I love my friends -- Amy, noelle, Britney, Yurina, Jesee and vinia. All wonderful girls who come to me for love fun and advice. The girls who don't like me didnt even go to college. As mom says, people who don't go to school lack that level of tolerance and acceptance that you learn from being in a big mixing pot. Them not liking me doesn't take away any achievements. I can still have a ball even when they're around. I'm not petty, I'm just awkward.
Love love love
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Jordan
Who do I want to be?
I want to be that girl with all the fabulous things. The fabulous purse, car, phone, clothes, sunglasses. However I didn't buy any of it because someone told me to. I am my own unique individual.
I want my car and my apartment to be clean and organized and inviting.
I want to be a Someone who takes care of herself. Only things that are good for me go into my body. And because of that my skin an hair are all extraordinary.
In addition, I push my body through running and videos and sex. And it shows no matter of I'm naked or dressed.
I also love to have fun though. Spontaneous adventures are a commonality. And raves and parties and festivals are a must. Although drinking casually is overrated and not necessary.
I surround myself with wonderful friends, but I'm also smart enough to keep my enimies close.
Ultimately though, I don't take things personally, and know I can't do anything to change people who don't like me. Whatever. It means nothing to my life.
I'm self sufficient and if I say I m going to do something, I do. I don't just sit around Doing nothing. I conquer life.
Aesthetically I'm little and lean. Hairless from the neck down. Brazillians are a breeze. But long dark hair, neat and tidy and with many options for updos that I've mastered.
I wear great clothes to work and to bars, but I'm not broke. Just tidy. And I remember to dry clean and do laundry consistently. Not to mention I've mastered high heels.
And the final, most important piece, I don't brag about all that I'm blessed with. I don't tell the world who I am and what my secrets are. I let them discover who I am on their own. And if they're ever mistaken, cest la vie. No reason to waste my breath explaining
I want to be that girl with all the fabulous things. The fabulous purse, car, phone, clothes, sunglasses. However I didn't buy any of it because someone told me to. I am my own unique individual.
I want my car and my apartment to be clean and organized and inviting.
I want to be a Someone who takes care of herself. Only things that are good for me go into my body. And because of that my skin an hair are all extraordinary.
In addition, I push my body through running and videos and sex. And it shows no matter of I'm naked or dressed.
I also love to have fun though. Spontaneous adventures are a commonality. And raves and parties and festivals are a must. Although drinking casually is overrated and not necessary.
I surround myself with wonderful friends, but I'm also smart enough to keep my enimies close.
Ultimately though, I don't take things personally, and know I can't do anything to change people who don't like me. Whatever. It means nothing to my life.
I'm self sufficient and if I say I m going to do something, I do. I don't just sit around Doing nothing. I conquer life.
Aesthetically I'm little and lean. Hairless from the neck down. Brazillians are a breeze. But long dark hair, neat and tidy and with many options for updos that I've mastered.
I wear great clothes to work and to bars, but I'm not broke. Just tidy. And I remember to dry clean and do laundry consistently. Not to mention I've mastered high heels.
And the final, most important piece, I don't brag about all that I'm blessed with. I don't tell the world who I am and what my secrets are. I let them discover who I am on their own. And if they're ever mistaken, cest la vie. No reason to waste my breath explaining
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