Happiness

Dear universe
why is Happiness so finicky sometimes. I love my life, but you keep throwing me these curve balls. What am I supposed to get out of this period of my life? And when will I know?

To be 100% honest with you, no tilted words to make me feel better: I feel sad. I miss having TW in my life. Shea so different from me, and her morals don't line up with mine per say, but I still think she's wonderful and there's so much I can learn from her. I wish you would help me find a way to get her back into my life.
I take or leave MR. She's not someone I particularly think is a good influence in my heart and soul. But I don't like the turmoil either. Please, universe, help my settle this.
And thank you, vast universe, for giving me mason. He is the most incredible man I've ever met. But please help calm my heart. I'm tired of arguing with him. I'm need to cut him more slack. I need to appreciate him more. In afraid ill loose him.
But thank you, wonderful universe, for my incredible life. I hope that I can take care of all that you've blessed me with. I dont want to waste any of it.
And I'm afraid my lack of confidence throws away some of the beauty and grace youve given me. Please help me find the strength inside of me to carry myself with strength, grace, and dignity.
I believe rumi when he says the entire universe is inside me. So please transcend me and help me along my way. I'm young and still learning and in love with the universe and it's way of guiding me.
My heart already feels more full.
Love you dear universe.